As the days and months pass by, my initial impatience to remain in Canada and fierce desire to return to Kolkata has faded. At first, this was terrifying, and my heart fought back to grasp those feelings again.
I have to ensure everyone knows.
However in hindsight, I realize that my passion and love for India will never quite go away. That zeal has merely acquired subtleties that I don't think I allowed myself when I came back to Canada. Instead of attempting to have my entire lifestyle, thought life and daydreams centered around Kolkata, I have learned to let those passions lessen to a more palatable simmer, rather than forcing it down everyone's throat at every mention of the country.
I will never forget Kolkata and all it gave me...but now I am learning that God may call me elsewhere, and that I have to learn to submit to that.